I have been going through so many changes since i last been on here. I finally got down to my weight 107 and guess what , im now 7months pregnant. I mean i'm having mixed emotiions now that the time is nearing to give birth. I am happy because i always wanted to have a baby especially with my boyfriend i love him so much, but then i hate it because i am forced to eat, when i say eat i mean eat. i mean my baby needs to survive, so i have to do whatever i need to do for her. then not only will i have to eat when she is born because i am breast feeding, how can i do it without looking at her and feeling guilty. So this is where you guys come in. I am afraid that as she grows she will pick up my eating habits. How can i not mention to her that being fat is unhealthy and that she doesnt eat certain foods because it has too many calories. I'm just afraid that i will resent her for destroying my perfecr figure i once had.. Please help, No one else understands what i feel like.

Oh by the way this is me before i got pregnant, i dont dare show you the pics now...